Written By Lillian Watson
July 20, 2014
Putting together a room can often times be quite easy. Taking it apart to make it something else can be a lot harder, especially on the emotions. Do we make it harder on ourselves, or is it something that just happens?
Today I have been cleaning out the Pure Romance items from my office to make it an office/spare room. This has been particularly hard on me because I did enjoy doing Pure Romance, and I think I held on for so long because subconsciously I wanted to go back for a while. I know that I had debated on putting in an order in May just to stay active and keep my downline since I was a Director. I knew ultimately that it would not benefit my team if I did that, and it was only prolonging the inevitable. I was going to loose my downline eventually because I knew I did not want to place a $$$$ order to keep them every 6months. Letting go of it all in such a final way is still hard.
One of the hardest parts of today was when I cleaned out my FatMax of all the demo items I had, and I came across my recruiting items. One of those was a photo album full of photos from World Conference. That was almost a year ago, and time is coming up for it again. I did enjoy most of WC last year, and the photos reminded me of what I was missing out on. I'm not sure if I want to keep them or toss them at this point, but I do know that they make me miss some of my sisters.
Throwing away old catalogs that I have had since I started took me back too. That made me miss the thrill of starting the business and the knowledge that I had all the opportunities in the world. Hitting the point I did with Pure Romance had me missing the easier days of when I was first starting. I missed the fact that it was not super complicated. I missed the drama being hidden from me because I was so new. I missed the ability to feel excited at the prospect of going to training instead of knowing that if I didn't go I was going to hear about how I was not setting a good example. I am not saying everything was bad at the end. I enjoyed the money that came after I established my business, but I was gone a lot to make sure I felt like I was doing enough. I felt like if I was not doing $2400 minimum I was letting myself, my team, and my upline down. More so myself.
Going further into the cleaning throwing away my business cards was hard. That was really final. I really do have NO use for them anymore. These were in bags, my totes, binders, and other random locations because I would take them everywhere. It made me miss being able to talk to women about the products and get excited when I helped someone. I almost wondered if I did do the right thing for a while. Then from the room next to me my son asked me when the Scout Baseball game was and it reminded me that I likely would have missed that and every friday night if I had kept going just to keep up with my numbers. I left the business to spend more time with my kids, and it has been great doing so.
Sometimes things have to change, and while it sucks saying goodbye to a good part of your life it is necessary to have other great things happen. Spending more time with my kids has been a blessing that has come from stepping down. I enjoy the fact I get to be the scout leader, the camp counselor, the school volunteer, and more. I like the fact that I can spend time with my husband every night and go fishing with the family every weekend. I like the fact that I DO NOT have to schedule my life around my business anymore. I like being me. I miss PR, but I like my family time more.
Well, I better get off to finish cleaning this room up so we can get a new REALLY BIG desk, bed, and new lamp in here. There is still tons to do, but thankfully the majority of the emotional things are done!!!! NIGHT.
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